HOLY FUCK MASSIVE FUCKING TRIGGER WARNING JESUS CHRITSTTEIOHNQ3OEIRGOEIRHG i am very shocked by this like its a powerful thing but holy crap i feel bad reblogging it incase it triggers anyone like it has me but ive put as many tws as i can think of
A 60 year old committed suicide today, but before doing so, he put this website up (mirrored thankfully)
Sometimes I just want to hear your voice.
When the world quiets you are all I see.
I miss the best friend. The constant companion. I miss your hugs. I miss your advice. I miss your voice. I miss your dumb antics. I miss your goofy, yet adorable smile. I miss quietly loving you while watching you grow into the man I know you’ll be.
I miss the everlasting crush. The boy who tempts. The awkward situations. The knowing glances. The texts while in the same room. The blatantly unknown and sometimes blazingly wrong.
I miss the boy who pushes. The boy who doesn’t put up with me. The boy who loves me with ever fiber of his being. I need someone to call me out and tell me it’s ok to just be.
I miss the first love. I can’t seem to forget you no matter how much I try. Will I ever care for someone the way I loved you? Will anyone look at me the way you used to?
"At the end of it all, you’re still my best friend
But there’s something inside that I need to release
Which way is right, which way is wrong
How do I say that I need to move on
You know we’re headed separate ways
And it feels like I am just too close to love you
There’s nothing I can really say”
This reminds me of a boy I know.
…i really miss him
I’m weak. I want to go home where I’m not out of sight out of mind.
I’m lonely and I’m tired.
I am not ok. I am not ok. I am not ok. I am not ok. I am not ok. I am not ok.
That feeling after a vacation surrounded by family… It’s low.
I so miss having people around. I miss having someone to talk to.